My blade

This is my escape
the sharp side of this blade
the cold shiver down my spine
knowing this blade is mine all mine

no one can give me the pleasure it does
you can smother me with kisses and embrace me with hugs
but when i go back to that sweet sweet pain
it's the only moment in life when i truely feel sane

When the blood drips down my wrist
theres no greater feeling then this
as my problems wash away
and my life can go on another day

I cant make you understand why i do it
you'd just scream and shout, make me feel like shit
so instead i'll go away
to a place i can stay
and calmly surrender
to my blade