Then why?

Why do I still try though my efforts translucent into nothing?
Why do I care when no one believes I really do?
Why do I still make an effort when no one makes an effort to know me?
Is this my life?
If this is a fight then the going gets tough...
The going gets fucked up; torn into pieces, and recreated into some shit no ones capable of surviving.

If this is my life
If this is my destiny
Then why try; why face disappointment?
Can I look fate in the eye and say, fuck you?
Am I aloud to say hell to it; hell to it all?
The world gets turned upside out everyday; my life is falling with it