Its weird how perfectly a day can begin and how horrible it can turn for the bad...its funny how you can move outside your body and view your life from the top.. When i look down, i cant help to wonder how i would ever be able to explain the emotions that run through my body...each day a war against emotions. All the ups and downs like title waves uncontrollable , wanting to reach out to people around you but instead you dissociate deep into your own world and sometimes so deep that you are not sure if you will ever find your way back to yourself.
Sometimes i wish i could pick up the key to my locked up heart or maybe i it would be better if the cracks in my heart becomes wider so that it can breath fresh air and get some sunlight. because how do you put a plaster on heart?
Days like today i silently pray that God could hand me an extra tank of oxygen, to be able to breath slowly resulting rational thoughts. Seems like my days lately are filled with a lot of silent prayers, like helpless ecoes, begging for strenght to hold on just one more day...
How do you stand tall if you doubt yourself? what do you do when it feels like your core is a mess yet you act like a survivor? if i brake down infront of you, will it all be worth it?
so i decide to keep silent instead and linger in my thought till the end
Sometimes i wish i could pick up the key to my locked up heart or maybe i it would be better if the cracks in my heart becomes wider so that it can breath fresh air and get some sunlight. because how do you put a plaster on heart?
Days like today i silently pray that God could hand me an extra tank of oxygen, to be able to breath slowly resulting rational thoughts. Seems like my days lately are filled with a lot of silent prayers, like helpless ecoes, begging for strenght to hold on just one more day...
How do you stand tall if you doubt yourself? what do you do when it feels like your core is a mess yet you act like a survivor? if i brake down infront of you, will it all be worth it?
so i decide to keep silent instead and linger in my thought till the end
One foot at a time. Its how I got throigh last 15 years. One second at a time. Never sure if the next second will be the one that gets me through or breaks me. But one more second....one MORE second...ONE more second.
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